What to do?
Feeling a bit depressed again...
I have to take summer classes in college and I have no problem doing the work. The only problem I seem to be having is making friends. Everyone is so engaging, and articulate, and funny. And then there is me, stumbling over my words and never finding anything to say in class. I wish it was easier for me to speak as it is for others who seem to be so natural at it.
We have to give presentations in one of my classes and I just stand up there and automatically freeze up...looking like a buffoon.
Maybe, I am a bit hard on myself at times. Others were fishing for words to say but they weren't as bad as I. I don't know anyone in my class. I have a hard time making relationships with others. I am not sure why I haven't gotten better at starting conversations with others because I work a retail job where I am forced to make small talk with random people but all this practice doesn't seem to be working. I guess I am naturally shy too so at work I try to work on my eye contact because I know this is an important thing to do to establish a connection.
I would think that I am sort of smart but--for instance, today, we had to have a class discussion and everyone is just popping off their opinions and I am still trying to come up with something to say. I have to prepare myself before I can say anything and words do not come easy for me. Is there anyone out there who feels this way? I am a quarter-life person going through these social obstacles that were supposed to be accomplished earlier in my life. Here I am a grown person and I can't seem to find anything to say. Everyone seems to have more experience and know more than me. Maybe I should just pop off at the mouth too because people seem to be attracted to anyone with moving lips.
So is there anyone else who feels this way? And is there anyone who overcame this anti-social obstacle?
