I am such a terrible girlfriend! My boyfriend and I are supposed to have a special friendship; hence the word friend in boyfriend. I should be able to tell him anything. We should have a completely open and honest relationship. I shouldn't be shutting him out because I tell my friends everything. But for some reason I left out a small detail about my previous job and it really affected my future plans of visiting him. My boyfriend and I have a long distance love affair, and we are talking about a real serious commitment. I felt like I've ruined what we had because I told a tiny little lie about my job. Well, anyway that job ended up letting me go and I am broke once again without being able to plan for my vacation. I feel so horrible because he really wanted to see me. We are trying to plan our lives together in the "city". But I have to make it up to him somehow...you see, I keep making plans to visit him in the city and then at the last minute I flake out. I really don't mean to. It's just my financial circumstances are hindering me from taking these trips. He even offers to pay, (greatest bf in the world) but I am too prideful. I definitely have to make it up to him...this summer. This summer we are planning to look for apartments so I am hoping that a final special appearance by me will repair whatever mistakes I've made in the past. He's been nothing but a gentlemen and I would hate to be the one to ruin things. I feel very low at this point...
